Unbind my hands
Can’t remember where I laid my plans
Syphilitic shadows crowd the bar and drown me out
Everybody’s lining up to tell me what I’m all about

It’s a lot of weight to try to bear on your own
It’s a lot of pain to hold when you don’t have a home
I try to scrape the silver linings off of every cloud
But everything I touch just turns to lead and pulls me down

Maybe I was you in another life
I still have the maps of your mind
Maybe it’s time to surrender and release
What I thought was mine

Unmake my vows
This was a mistake, I’m breaking down and I want out
I wasn’t ready for this path, its power or its pain
But I know I will never be what I once was again

It’s a lot of light to try to bear on your own
And there’s a lot of sleepless nights you just stay awake shaking all alone
But all my supernatural symptoms seem to fade away
The second I remember I am the God to which I pray

Maybe I am
Everything I thought I needed from you
Maybe it’s time to surrender and release
What I thought I knew

And I wanted to fail,
but I tried.

There’s a lot of valid reasons I should want you dead
But I will do my very best to worship you instead
You destroy me perfectly, my enemy, my friend
I know exactly how all this will end, I just don’t know when


Hopelessness Has Done Nothing For Me

You like the warmth of the summer nights,
But you can’t escape the call of the winter rain
And I try to keep the light burning bright
But can’t turn away from the pleasure of my pain

How can you be sorry when you don’t even know what you did?
You can take your stories to hell, I’ve got nothing left to give

No no no it’s happening again
You opened up your heart
And let somebody in
Now you’ve got a stranger in your home
You could kick him out
But then you would be alone

Turn back the clock, see the time we lost
Make a different choice and watch the whole picture change
Learn that to hear is to have a voice
We could have it all if we just get out of the way

How can you move forward when you don’t even know where you’ve been?
Hopelessness has done nothing for me
I want this thing to live

Well here we are, it’s happening again
You opened up your heart and let somebody in
Now you’ve got a stranger in your home
Might as well sit down and try to get to know him


Say You Do

Well that happened, what did I tell you?
Words don’t always make things right
You had the power to turn it around
Now you’re tossing and turning all night

 Don’t you know who you are?
I’m amazed you’ve made it this far
Why do you think all these things happen to you?
When do you think you’ll start doing the things you say you do?

 Well now that’s over I guess you were right
What’s the point of being nice?
Some things just don’t work out
So go ahead, get the fuck out
You don’t have to tell me twice

Don’t you know who I am?
You’re just a little woman
And I’m a big man
I’ve never heard you use that tone with me before
Show some respect, I’ve given you
So much to be grateful for

Here to Tell—

— Wait, come back before you go away!

— It’s three in the morning,
Don’t you think it could wait another day?

— You and I both know I won’t be here for long.
I’m here to tell you how to find your way back where you belong.

My son, you have a body, it is young and strong.
Use it while you have it; you’re gonna miss it when it’s gone.
I didn’t know until it was too late.
I’m here to tell you so you don’t have to make the same mistake.

We fell down from the clouds like frozen water
We crawled out of the sea to build a fire
Then came the rains, the plagues, the holy slaughters
That’s just the price you pay for human desire

— Wait! Come back before you go away!

— It’s three in the afternoon;
I’ve said everything I have to say.
Now you know, and it’s not too late.
You’re here to tell them so
they don’t make the same mistake.


Cause or Effect

So you’ve never been in love
Maybe that’s the reason you were born with an older brother
Who says he hates your guts
My head’s so full of clutter

Well I can see you’re feeling blue
Maybe that’s the reason all your friends are outside smoking
And you got nothing else to do
Yr phone is broken

And my heart is sinking fast
Maybe that’s the reason that you have two hands to hold it
But I knew it would never last
No matter what we called it

When I saw you
All my own prophecies came true
Just like you said

Now we’re off the beaten path
Maybe that’s the reason that the drugs took all our money
And I couldn’t help but laugh
When you said you want me

And the dogs are on the floor
Maybe that’s because they know it’s good to stay grounded
Saw you searching for the door
Said you felt surrounded

By what you’re not
Well was that real, or what you thought?
Cause or effect?


I had something to say
Too bad you turned away

Was it all my fault?
Could you not see?
I was terrified of what I knew I could be

Heartbreak paid by the hour
I made mistakes
Gave you my power

But it’ll be alright
It’ll be alright, I swear
I believe nothing is beyond repair

Who hurt whom worse?
Some stories make more sense read in reverse

But which one came first?
I was your blessing and I was your curse

You sly, two-headed beast
What do you need to be released?

Could you hear my cry?
Could you not see?
I was terrified of what I knew I could be



I never really believed you were mine
Even though that’s how we’re told to define love
Love does not seek to control or confine
Even though that’s more than I can say of mine

But maybe we just need a little more time
To sit back and watch these knots unwind
You know everyone’s scared they’re losing their minds
But if you open your eyes, they’re easy enough to find
Too bad we’re so fucking stoked to be blind

I can’t seem to shake what you said
And I don’t feel safe in my head
I will be raised from the depths
Of my sorrows, at least when I’m dead

Mother, forgive me, I’m lost
But I’ll find my way home, whatever the cost
I’ll lay down my weapons and crawl
My way back over all the boundaries I’ve crossed

Well I know it’s hard to loosen your grip
But try to see you’re hanging on to a sinking ship
No matter what, just remember to breathe
‘Cause I believe we got a few cards up our sleeve

Everything is a part of the whole
So don’t let the black hole in you take control
And everything has a reason to be,
So don’t believe it when they tell you you’re not free
And it’s you pitted against me

I can’t seem to shake what you said
And I don’t feel safe in my head
I will be raised from the depths
Of my sorrows, at least when I’m dead

Mother, forgive me, I’m lost
But I’ll find my way home, whatever the cost
I’ll lay down my weapons and crawl
My way back over all the boundaries I’ve crossed


Cleansed By Fire

We, two as one
Reached for the sun
Well, we tried
But that look in your eyes
Made me blind
So what if I didn’t mind?

Here, safe at last
We, too, shall pass
Time moves slow
I’ve got nowhere to go
You still don’t know
So what if I told you so?
So what if you told me so?

Wake from your dream
There’s more to see
Don’t deny
What we saw in the sky
Cleansed by fire
So what if I am a liar?

Mine to Take

Don’t try to tie me down
I’m in love with everyone
I’ve run off, I’ve stuck around
I’ll be older when I’m done

Make a home in the movement inside you
Where you can go when there’s nowhere to hide
It’s a long way down to the bottom
Of this slippery spiral slide

I can recognize it’s a habit
That I would like to break
But I don’t even know if you have it
Or if it’s mine to take

Don’t try to answer my prayers
I don’t pray to anyone
Go shed a few more layers
You’ll feel lighter when you’re done

Find a friend in the chaos inside you
Who’ll understand when there’s nowhere to turn
Find the meaning in all of the madness
There is a thing or two you might learn

I can register the words you’re saying
But I might not agree
I don’t need to know what chords you’re playing
To know what’s out of key



Was it Heaven

Here is my bed
I’ve made it, too
I lost sight of me
While I was looking at you

Where is the love
In which we fell?
Was it Heaven,
Or the bottom of a well?

 You met my heart
With such disdain
Your beautiful face
Won’t make me forget that pain

Your angel mask
You wear it well
Even you fall prey
To its powerful spell

 With you I was
Infinitely lost

How do you stand
The damp of your prison cell?
You’re so dead inside,
Bet you can’t even tell

 Your heavy heart
Tipped all my scales
I tried hard to lighten you
But to no avail

 With you I was
Infinitely lost

 I bought the dream
You came to sell
Was it Heaven,
Or just our own private hell?

 Now in the ranks
Of mortal men
Mend your broken wings
I hope you’ll fly again

 With you I was
Infinitely lost
With you I was





A Bird in the Crocodile’s Mouth

Feels like it's been a while
What am I waiting for –
Your empty-hearted smile?
I don't care anymore

The slow descent
Into the madness of our fears
You know I meant
To do it better this time, but I'm not really here

You went the extra mile
Am I supposed to be proud?
You're in denial
I can't stand by watching you drown

I know the game, don't wanna waste another day
Just grinding our gears
There's no one to blame for all the pain
You've felt all these years


Feels like it's been a while
What am I doing wrong?
Tooth of a crocodile,
Iguess you were right all along


Hungry Ghost

Go back inside
There’s nothing here to see
Don’t try to describe
Me to me,

‘Cause if you can think it, I’ve already said it In a meaner way
And anyway the thing is I try to forget it
But it’s here to stay

And I’m sick of everybody leaving me for dead
All I hear is people grieving
Even in my head
They say that what you give is what you get
I gave you everything and all I got Is a lot of regret


Come back inside It’s getting cold out here
Iwant to survive
Another thousand years

And this is the reason
can never tell you
What I mean to say:
The sounds I’m making,
You’ve already heard ‘em
In a cleaner way

But I’m sick of everybody leaving me for dead
All I hear is people grieving
Even in my head
They say that what you give is what you get
I gave you everything and all I got Is a lot of regret


Let Me Stay

Sister, where’d you go?
I’ve gone and fallen off my horse again
Summer’s ending, I’m remembering
Everything we could’ve been

But those forever feelings never stay
I had a center once, she went away
Was the weight of my darkness too great?
Call me the light, I will drive those demons away

Brother, where’d you go?
I’ve wandered off and lost my way again
My feeding frenzies
Leave me feeling empty nine times out of ten
Those phosphorescent petals always fade

You said you loved me once, but something changed
Was the strain of my sadness too great?
Call me the rain, I am here to clean the slate

Brief moments of bravery,
Relapses into cowardice
Glimpses of profundity,
Dances with the precipice

Retreating back into your slippery shell,
Safe within the dismal diving bell
Well, instead of going into hiding
And pushing everyone who loves you away,
What if you opened up your doors
And let me stay?


The Blessing / The Curse

Tie the tourniquet tight
Bathe my eyes in angel light
I never believed a word I said was true
I was abusing language to have power over you
And I know I'm the devil, I know I'm a mess
But I'm not a broken record, I learn my lessons fast
Push that feeling down

You'll scare them all off if you let it out
But I don't want to not have anything to say
Nothing in my body's telling me this is ok
So I will find the part of you that I can love
My blessing and my curse, I am what you are made of

She painted me white
Changed my bandages and stayed the night
And I am here to learn all that she has to teach
I will swim towards her lighthouse, always just out of reach
After all I wanted nothing if not love:
The blessing and the curse I can't stop dreaming of


circlenot astraight

The answer comes as a question mark
And I can’t be bothered to remark
What did I know but wasn’t ready to say?

I am your sister, don’t pretend
I don’t know your tricks, you were my only friend
I never thought that we would end up this way

My addictions make me hate
But my afflictions make me kind
I’m a circle, not a straight line

Then we get swallowed by the abyss
What is the meaning of all of this?
You might act like you’ll never die
But you’re getting old

Don’t act like you don’t love the sting
I know you’re capable of anything
You were the most convincing lie I ever told

My afflictions make me hate
But my addictions make me kind
I’m a circle, not a straight line


There is a Light

Buried alive, we got sucked down the funnel
But there is a light at the end of our tunnel
So don't waste your time giving up
When you could be forgiving

Don't lose your mind, don't forget
This life is for the living

Here is the girl you don't remember meeting
To show you the love you're so afraid of needing
You fight so hard
Just to make them all think that you never struggle
You say you see how it is
That you're looking at is a piece of the puzzle

And we could put it together, or disintegrate—
You know it's now or never, but it's never too late
To give it all away
So give it all away

Well I know the world is in all kinds of trouble
But you can't live your life in some aseptic bubble
So don't lose sight of your worth
And the infinite wealth of gifts you've been given
Open your mind to the world
And the intimate well of truth that lay hidden

Well we could lie down and collectively seal our fate…
You know it's now or never
But it's never too late



Sickened as I am by my own behavior
I cannot seem to make it change
You’ve given me all the chances I deserve
To prove you right and clear my wretched name

Why do I fight
All that I know to be good and true and holy and right?
And what is this drive
To drive you away, when your love is what keeps me alive?

Bittersweet pill
Promise me you will
Be here still


I believe my sadness has served a purpose,
But I see how bad it fucks with you
I have had my fill of feeling worthless
And now I’ve got better things to do

So no more doubt—
Slit my belly open, pull that stubborn stuffing out!
And fill me with light—
I think I’m finally ready to be alright

Bittersweet pill
Promise me you will
Love me still


Little Red Lines

Well, here I am
I wish you would look away
I’m not the man I thought I was yesterday

I always change,
And you stay just the same
You don’t get angry, you know I’m not to blame

You say, “You’re caught in a war
That you’re not gonna win,
But if you knock on my door, baby, I just might let you in

I know shit can get real
When you stay in one place,
When you sit there and feel what no amount of thinking can erase.”

But I’ve been doing my best to be doing ok
So lay off, man, I’ve had a long day

I was afraid
You would see through my smile
And know I can’t wait to be alone for a while

You know I love you
And hate to cause you pain
But you’re bound to get a little roughed up playing in the lion’s mane


From the little red lines
To the wolves at the door
I gave some warning signs that were not so easy to ignore

You say it’s easy to change
But I stay just the same
Fickle and strange with one too many tigers to tame

But I’ve been doing my best to be doing ok
So lay off, man, I’ve had a long day
Yeah I’ve been doing my best to be doing ok
So try to understand, I’ve come a long way


White Owl

In my dreams
I will come to seek you out
When I sleep
I'll become a white owl

And fly out of my window
And into your window,
And re-materialize as myself
And wrap my snowy, naked limbs around you
So, so happy I found you

I used to think
I was a one-of-a-kind
Then, in the blink of an eye
You appeared to show me I was blind

And now I can see everything
And it's all beautiful
You made me realize
All the stories I told were just lies
That used to sound true
So, so happy I found you

Out of the black, foreboding skies
You are the sun that never fails to rise
And when the shadows cover me
You're the moon, I am your faithful sea
Rising with you as you shine on me

Through your eyes, I've learned to see myself clearly
I used to despise the poor girl inside the mirror
But now I just pretend
That I'm looking at you
Looking right back at me
You show me the beauty that I never could see

So, so happy you found me



Black Moss

Fear is the weight we carry from the cradle straight to our graves, and love is the treasure we bury; pain alternates with pleasure in beautiful waves

and you've been watching me— you say I emanate some strange magnetic power, but don't be drawn to me; I may be here today, but soon black moss will cover

over my dead body.

You've been a lot of places— left me forgotten by your side— and maybe the feeling's baseless, but something still stirs in me when I look in your eyes,

'cause you've been kind to me; I never quite believed you when you said it's over. Well what is wrong with me? I trusted you—you watched me open like a flower

over my dead body.



I think I know who you are, and I don't know how I let it get this far. Also there's this girl I met at a bar— she burned as bright and as unattainably as some distant star

and from within her fragile flesh, where I lay my head to rest I could feel her heart hammering in her chest. Then and there I swore, by the blue light of her celestial glow, I would follow her where no one else dares to go.

I know we've been here before; I never had less than one foot out the door. I know you expected more from me, but I've given up, so I don't know what it is you're waiting for.

I don't even know her name, and maybe that's for the best, but I feel her heart hammering in my chest. I know I'm no good, and I hate to say that I told you so— why'd you follow me where no one else dares to go?


True Colors

I walked into the jaws of the lion. She stalked under the belt of Orion. We caught and disemboweled our disembodied prey. She shot like a bottle rocket into the fray.

I crawled into the mouth of the river. She called; her silver voices made me shiver. We spoke; I posed, she painted my reflection. I awoke without the faintest recollection.

Wherever you are, you'll never get where you're going if you're wound so tight. Forget the duality of wrong and right.

Wherever you are, you'll never get out alive if you got no light. You can't see your true colors in black and white.

I fell into the arms of my father. He knelt to kiss the shadow of his daughter. I heard she, having taken quite a beating, Found words true enough to bear repeating.


Figure 8

What have I got myself into now? Who's gonna save me when you're not around? And what if I get myself in too deep? Will the angels come down to carry me off in my sleep?

Who put all these words in my mouth? What are these warped, wayward thoughts all about? And what's with the guy in the bulletproof vest? He's just a metaphor, but we should probably go— I think it's for the best.

Tell me something I don't already know: Are you a mistake, or everything I've been looking for? Are you the meaning of life? Tell me, Figure 8, is everything alright?

What if you're wrong and nothing's alright? What if it's me and not you who's ruining my life? So what if I got my head in the clouds? Up here it's not half as bad as it is down there on the hot, filthy ground.

Tell me something I don't already know: Was I a big mistake just like all the ones you made before? Was I the love of your life? Tell me, Figure 8, was everything a lie?



She turned to me and, with a smile, said, where have you gone? You've learned to see, but, all the while, never saw that we are one.

But time will close your tired eyes, and truth will grow over the lies.

So let your yellow-bellied brethren burn to death or drown. Your fellow tethered devils never learn; don't let them keep you down,

For time creates as it destroys, and truth will cancel out the noise.

You see, God has his plans, but I've got mine, and little good will come to those who stand in line.

I can't hear you 'cause of all the voices in my head.

Humble dirt would turn to vapor every time she spoke. We'd crumble like her ever-burning paper turned to ash and smoke.

But time creates as it destroys. One day we lost her in the noise.

Shallow, rolling holy water rose and slowly fell. Swallowing a foreign body—rose red holes to show and tell—

She was washed away with the tide. We saw the water in her eyes

When she said, "God has his plans, but I've got mine." The white hot heat in her hands melted her mind.

And the truth will bear its fangs, and you and I will be just fine, But she could never seem to understand these things take time.

I can't hear you 'cause of all the voices in my head.


Less Traveled

We were in the woods. It was getting dark; you fell asleep on the ground at my side, suddenly awoke and, with a shudder, croaked, "Mother, won't you let me back inside?"

Little one, if I were in your shoes, I would take the road less traveled. Then again, if I were really you, why would I be seeking counsel from me?

Don't seek counsel from me.

Triplets pitter-patter in pretty patterns, stippling and spattering my empty mind. If you clear a path, it doesn't matter where you wind up—who knows what you'll find?

Myriad are the guiding voices if you take the road less traveled, but you're the only one who can make those choices, so don't take it from me.

Why would you take anything from me?

There is a time and a place in your mind more perfect than this world will ever be.

You locked the door, don't live there anymore, but check both your pockets—maybe you still have the key.

We built the walls— they were strong, overall— but now the barriers all start to fade away,

and damn, it feels good: something we understood a long time ago but forgot somewhere on the way.


Pin Oaks You knocked and I let you in (unlocked the door, led you under my skin) but hate lay like a snake in the grass, waiting to strike at our heels as we passed.

She kept the key to my dark room; she left and warped the weft of my loom. I saw hordes of gray eyes and dark, hungry mouths; Lord knows what they were mumbling about.

I lost hold of the rail I was grasping— ghostly pale, quaking like an aspen. Now this thick rope encircles my neck. Whisper, "I hope you're quick to forget."

Grief warms the back of your throat; greedy wind snatches at your threadbare coat. Pin oaks and old rusty nails— pinafores rustle and fill like sails.


This is Why Hey, would you wanna go with me to a party? It might be dumb, and I don't know anyone. Sure, I know there will be nothing there for me, but let's go anyway—I'll drive you home when we're done.

We could sleep, but haven't you heard we're all dying? Living fast is much more fun! And I think deep down we know there's no point in trying, but all we know how to do is run, run, run, run, run...

And this is why I cannot be alone anymore. I miss the time when I knew what my time was for.

Oh my God, is it me, or is it getting harder to believe you were ever really anyone? I'm not sure, but I think I used to be much smarter back when I used to walk instead of run.

And I could say what you wanna hear if it would stop your crying— that way might be much more fun. And I would tell you the truth, but I would be lying, 'cause even I don't know what I've done.

And this is why I cannot be around anyone. I miss the time when I knew how to be alone.

Found I Lost hey why'd you go? why'd you stay so long if you know i'm insane even though it's a game i play you say no body's to blame but you don't have to soften the blow

well why should i care if i die you know life's not fair so come on, no more try ing let's sit and stare at our indescrib able, deep despair call me a li ar and a coward, tell me you know I wouldn't dare

once in a while, things get bad i found i lost something i never knew i had

you know the deal it's all for show you know nothing's real but let's try to pho tograph how we feel find the mo tor behind the wheel are we in mo tion or just still frames projected from an endless reel?

once in a while, things get bad i found i lost something i never knew i had

and i'm so sorry

The Wheel Old pain, why are you here again? In vain I have fled from where I've been— where am I?

Tied to the chariot's ever-turning wheel, or high in the shattered tower of burning steel— where am I?

How much more are you willing to take? Do you think you'll bend, or will you break?

We try, but we never really go anywhere. Why am I the only one who ever seems to care? What am I?

How much more are you willing to take? Do you think you'll bend, or will you break?



Both Worlds

“A” was the letter he carved in my heart

With his cold metal instrument

And red was the blood that rolled down my forehead

After I had another incident


Gray was the color of our dead skin

When we exfoliated thoroughly

And clear was the water that washed it all

Down the drain so we wouldn’t have to see


Take my hand in your two hands

I’ve got no one

You’re the best of both worlds


Deep was the hole I’d lain myself down in

Before you came to my rescue

Now deeper is the ocean I’d swim across

Holding my breath just to get to you


Take my hand in your two hands

I’ve got no one

You’re the worst of both worlds


We Fell

How can we get so lost in the light?

I’m waiting to make up for lost time

'Cause I’m awake for what feels like the very first time


How long have you been hiding here in plain sight?

I’m trying to resist your gravity, but for naught—

I’m a luna moth drawn to your light


You fell into my life like a jet engine through a roof

And I fell down a mountain

I got this broken heart as proof


So tell me, where did you go so late last night?

I woke up without you next to me

I wandered out like a crazed ghost into the moonlight


You fell into my life like a coin a wishing well

And I fell silent as a snowy field

And instantly under your spell


My Storm

You think you know that it is, but it's not

You got away with it ‘til you got caught

It is what it is, but it's not what you thought


Savor the scent of a fruit cracking open,

The sound of the soft, sacred words that were spoken,

The spindle-prick and the kiss by which you were awoken,

The taste of the blood from the glass that was broken


You were gone

Before I ever even got to know you

So what should I do with this song?

It was for you, but now I'll never get to show you.


You told me you'd always protect me from harm

Rock me to sleep, keep me safe, keep me warm

But I wondered, while wrapped in your strong, stubborn arms:

Are you my shelter or are you my storm?


You think you know what it is, but you don't

You're gonna get over this but I won't

You're gonna get over this but I won't

You're gonna get over this but I won't


You were gone

Before I ever had a chance show you

That I could be true, but I was wrong

When I said I never even got to know you


‘Cause I know you, I know you, I know you


I know you better than the red apple knows the green worm

Better than the yellowjacket knows the swarm

But one thing I don't know and may never learn:

Are you my shelter or are you my storm?


Everyone I Know


Surround this humble home and

I was

Awoken by the sound of the wolves

Howling at my door


Two words

Hung trembling from her grayish lips and

I felt

Ashamed to have been a part of it

After all was said and done


So I know you think you've got it bad but

You'll be alright

Everyone I know has got it wrong but

I think you've got it right



Down the halls of your consciousness drives

You mad

And bludgeons your budding confidence

How will you win the war?


So I know you think you've got it bad but

I like you fine

You're the only one who's ever yours but

I want you to be mine


Your Glow

My malaise was molten metal

Twisting into golden petals

Kiss me softly like a sparrow


Suck my soul like mellow marrow

Your glow, yellower than yarrow,

Burns me like a stinging nettle


Oh, what a harrowing ordeal

To have a brain and have to feel

Love and pain and fear and sorrow


Buried below freezing barrows,

Bellows billowed blazing arrows

Blowing birds in noisy kettles


You send my signal through your pedals

Sad sediment slowly settles

Behind your gray eyes, so cold and narrow


Steal what you cannot borrow

Soon today will be tomorrow

Throw away whatever is not real.


To the Bone

True love never waits

For the opening of the gates

It rattles in its cage

Spills its blood over scribbled pages

And staining your sad prose,

Spreads like a rose


I misplaced my friends

Hands were shaken, chapters ended

Call me what you will

I could have kept them all and still

Be stranded in this strange, terrible place


After a lifetime being by myself

I never thought I needed anyone else


But true love never waits

For a verdict from the Fates

It shakes you to the bone

Throws you on the street

And gives you a home



Lost in the woods

With every step I took

I felt you there with me

I raised your kiss

To my thirsty lips

And laughed as it ran down my throat


I'll never forget

The Payne's grey day we met

A dove with a bell in its beak

A strange, ancient song

That blossomed on my tongue

Led me to a hidden stream


A cold, fickle breeze

Knocked me to my knees

And the salt on my skin turned to smoke

But the memory still lingers

In the valleys of my fingers

A cut paper bird, a broken bell


So I raised my hood and walked into the woods

To gather flowers in a basket to bring home


Past Tense

I went away for months, or maybe it was years

My house was overrun by fears

But while I was not home

I left a faucet running

And I won't call it "hope,"

But I'm still alive, so that's something


One thing I learned after so many months or years:

Regret is the past tense of fear

And I know memories

Are like running water

And I don't want them to freeze

But I could use something to hold on to


Strange faces in the crowd

And you walk around like you own this town

In my kaleidoscope heart

You're a shard of fire

And I won't call it "love,"

But there's more to it than desire


Have to Lose

With forsythia

Bursting into bloom,

I first set foot outside

Of my cobweb-covered room


O, lonely road

O, lovely road


All roads lead nowhere

It doesn't really matter which you choose

The more you love,

The more you have to lose


O, lonely road

O, lovely road


Take what you want

I will keep what you don't

Just don't leave

Before you've said

Whatever you came to say

Because you're never

Coming back home

Once you go away